tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977254705557754133.post2770666619853002377..comments2023-06-16T09:12:03.165-06:00Comments on Blog - Camille Nathania: Head/Heart: October 2015.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06712874522639024692noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977254705557754133.post-89026814874538000772015-11-03T19:55:10.873-07:002015-11-03T19:55:10.873-07:00Hey Teresa!
I think I've been told to be les...Hey Teresa! <br /><br />I think I've been told to be less hard on myself all my life! My perfectionism is as much of a blessing as it is a curse—great in terms of pushing myself, attention to detail, and honing my craft; not-so-great in terms of daily life and some decision-making. <br /><br />In yoga, there is a teaching—a commitment, for lack of a better word, and one of these is “aparigraha” (meaning non-grasping or non-attachment). I had been attached to the idea that, now that I'm better at managing myself, now that I'm healthier inside and out, things generally would be okay. That they *should* be okay. And then I was attached to the idea that I should or shouldn't be feeling/thinking a certain way. But really, there is no "should"—no one way to live or feel or think or be, because all we should focus on being is present; after all, how could there only be one way to live if life simply constantly changes? Somehow, I had lost the ability to see things as they were, difficult or not, and I got wrapped up in the drama of life. Drama that was then compounded by my own brain telling me I wasn't doing good enough at handling it. It sounds so silly now, and all I can do is laugh and be kind to myself!<br /><br />I had been hesitant in doing a workshop previously because of the same reasons you mentioned—I was nervous about having to book a venue and then people not showing up, which is why I kicked things off with Work-Shop Australia first. I don't think there's one in Perth yet, but if you can find a similar organisation it may help a great deal.<br /><br />Thanks for commenting as always—November is definitely going to be better. It's my birthday month after all! xAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06712874522639024692noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2977254705557754133.post-31276975894933414472015-11-03T16:11:16.939-07:002015-11-03T16:11:16.939-07:00You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, Camille ...You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, Camille :) Easier said than done of course. I've watched others go through similar ups and downs with anxiety, and it does seem like that perfectionist quality plays quite a role in struggling to move forward. At the end of the day we're all only human.<br /><br />Looks like you did a great job with the workshop! I've been thinking of doing some too (calligraphy) but so far haven't made the push to book a venue and get things started.<br /><br />Also love your ghost costume! And that vegetarian cookbook sounds great, I'll be checking that one out :)<br /><br />Hope you have a better November!Chisahttp://chigarden.comnoreply@blogger.com